898 Why Don’t You Die?
“Madam, why are you sighing?” Ji Yan raised his eyebrows and looked over.

Shen Hanxing looked up at Ji Yan. The man in front of her was tall and straight, with a thin waist and long legs. Just by standing there, he could give off a strong sense of oppression. No one could deny his handsomeness, and no one could ignore his strength. Ji Yan was different from the first time she met him, the thin and gloomy man who locked himself in a dark room.

“Mr. Ji, you already found out that Cheng Songyang was the mastermind behind the incident that led to Liu Zhibai switching the medicine, didn’t you?” Shen Hanxing whispered. “Of course, with your intelligence, there’s hardly anything in this world that can escape your watchful eyes. But back then, you handed over Ji Corporation to Cheng Songyang…” Shen Hanxing pursed her lips, finding it difficult to continue. She couldn’t know what Ji Yan thought when he locked her up in that dark room. This man, who was a master strategist and seemed invincible, had met a tragic end in his past life through suicide. What was he thinking in his last moments?

Just thinking about it made Shen Hanxing’s heartache. She lowered her eyes, and her long eyelashes drooped, hiding the complicated emotions in her eyes. She grabbed Ji Yan’s hand with an obscure expression.

“Madam, you’re right. I handed the Ji Corporation over to Cheng Songyang on purpose.” Ji Yan sighed silently. Shen Hanxing was very smart, and he had never thought of hiding it from her. Seeing the expression on Shen Hanxing’s face, he could not tell whether it was sweet or anxious. He pulled her into his arms and said gently, “I admit that I was indeed making arrangements for the future at that time.” Before Shen Hanxing appeared, Ji Yan’s world was barren, filled with coldness and darkness. Life or death meant nothing to him. He accepted Ji Corporation and expanded it into the top wealthy family in S City because it was his responsibility. He also had a few incompetent younger siblings at home. After the accident that left him with a broken leg, he couldn’t determine if he was feeling relieved or had given in to his decadence. Since he had already become a useless cripple, it was better to leave this world. He gave up on himself and did not want to face this cold world again.

Ji Yan knew that Ji Mei was not a good person. He also knew that Cheng Songyang was not as gentle and honorable as he appeared on the surface. However, Cheng Songyang was the most suitable person to take over Ji Corporation. A person like Cheng Songyang was the most hypocritical when he was in the spotlight. He was very concerned about his reputation. If he passed away, Cheng Songyang would take over Ji Corporation. To show he valued friendship and righteousness, and to maintain his image to the public, Cheng Songyang would treat his younger brother and sister well. After all, Ji Yang and the others were more absurd than the last. They would not pose any threat to him in any way. He would only need to spend some money to support them. At the same time, he could also gain a good reputation. A person like Cheng Songyang would not reject them.

“I might not be as good as you think.” Ji Yan hugged Shen Hanxing, and for the first time, a fragile emotion appeared in his dark eyes. He said softly, “I can even calculate my life and death. I have no attachment to anything.” That was why he could coldly choose Cheng Songyang as his successor.

Ji Yan closed his eyes, overwhelmed with self-loathing. A sharp, almost hysterical female voice echoed in his ears, cursing him bitterly, “You heartless monster! If I had known you were this kind of monster, I should have strangled you to death. Why don’t you die? You don’t have a heart at all. You’re a natural-born monster. You should just die!”

Ji Yan’s heart ached, and his fingertips trembled. Did Shen Hanxing also think that he was too scary? He was a monster who didn’t even care about his own life. Everything in this world was useless to him except for its value. Everything could be calculated and strategized, even his death. He could calmly consider his death as a point to be utilized, factoring it into his plans. Shen Hanxing must feel very scared about him. Monsters did not deserve love. He should let her go. She was so beautiful and pure. She should have a wonderful lover and a perfect love. She deserved the best in the world.
But… Ji Yan tightened his arms, and his eyes turned red. Perhaps he was a heartless monster. He was selfish, dark, and paranoid. Ji Yan knew that if he loved Shen Hanxing, he would let her pursue a better life, but he was still selfish and refused to let go.