âI wonât be mad at you for not trusting me.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âI wouldnât even ask what youâre hiding. Iâm just going to wait until you decide to tell me your secrets first. However¡¡¡¡¡¡â
Calix paused for a moment and then raised his head. And like the clear sky after the rain, a set of blue eyes stared at me gently. I stifled by such a transparent gaze.
âYou can never get away from me.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âDonât leave me. Unless you want to see my soul being ripped to shreds.â
The fierce glare of his eyes was terrifying. His eyes seemed to say, âI wonât allow any next time.â
As I swallow, feeling extremely on edge, Calixâs hand stretched out and gently touched my face. Then he slowly lowered his head.
As soon as our lips touch and the kiss was about to deepen¡¡¡¡¡¡.
Knock, knock!
Suddenly there was a knock outside.
âYour Grace. Itâs Rumbury. A message came from Lord Canelo.â
What an impeccable timing.
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
Calix crumpled his forehead irritably and rose from his seat and with me held in one arm.
As I was flustered for a while due to my vision suddenly got high, we were already outside in just a blink of an eye.
My face flushed with embarrassment and awkwardly greeted Tess Rumberry.
âGood Afternoon¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
She glanced at me in Calixâs arms and looked at me with a knowing expression.
âWhat message is it?â
Calix asked with a sour look. I pressed down on his shoulder firmly, signaling him with my eyes to drop me down.
However, Calix remained still. Rather, he hugged me even tighter. As I try to pinch his forearm in embarrassment, Tess Romburyâs voice was heard.
âLord Canelo sent an invitation. Perhaps the divine lady informed the Lord that youâre here in this island¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âThat woman¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
Calix frowned as if heâs having a headache. Then his blue eyes burned with hostility toward Sia.
It felt peculiarly strange as I watch his reactions. I was still unfamiliar with the sight of the male lead Calix Rochester antagonizing the heroine Sia.
âStill, I shouldnât be too relieved.â
I havenât heard anything about the oracle yet.
Thatâs why I always have this foreboding feeling. A feeling that a Pandoraâs Box will suddenly open without any forewarnings.
âOr it could also be just my misgivings.â
If the oracle had come down, the news would have spread all the way here. It is extremely unlikely that it would be kept confidential.
âI have no choice but to just pray for things to flow differently from the original story.â
Looking back, the timing of Siaâs appearance was also different from the original timeline. But for what reason?
It was unforeseen that I would have a child, or that Calixâs feelings would not change, however Sia, her existence was also rather quite strange.
âIt seems that her personality is different from the original character.â
I was seriously pondering about that notion when Calix suddenly began to stride while carrying me in his arms.
âAh¡¡¡¡¡¡!â
âStay still. Iâm not going to kidnap you.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
Iâm not really worried about him capturing me. Itâs just that Calix had this twisted way of thinking. The same as his misunderstanding between me and Willâs relationship¡¡¡¡¡¡.
âI feel like heâs always not in his right set of mind whenever the subject is related to me.â
He called me his world. His everything. That Iâm the most important to him, but Iâve chosen to throw him away¡¡¡¡¡¡¡.
âHowever, all this time, I thought I was the one who was abandoned. When I saw you with Sia then¡¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
The words that I couldnât bring out of my mouth hurts like thorns in my throat.
âI didnât mean to throw you away¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
I was afraid Iâll lose you to her.
I was afraid Iâd die of jealousy because of her.
I was afraid of losing Letty¡¡¡¡¡¡.
As sentiments swirl inside my head a dozen times, we have arrived home before I even knew it.
âI can walk myself to my room.â
I timidly said to Calix when we reached the front door.
Calix looked down at me and soon nodded. Finally letting me down.
âPhew¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
The moment I sighed as soon as I stepped on the ground, Calix looked at me unfathomably.
And soon after, his eyes were filled with unrelenting coldness. Calix grabbed me by the shoulder and coercively said.
âIf by any chance, I came back from the castle and you werenât here¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âI wonât run away.â
I interjected weakly. It was obvious even without hearing the end of what he was trying to say. Heâs going to arrest the Osborne father and son then heâs going to tear down their home and shop, is probably what is he going to convey.
âHow did Calix ended up hating Sia? Why did he come after me? Is it because of some lingering feelings? Why is he obsessed with me? I canât understand a single thing¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
With a look of exhaustion suffuse all over my face, I opened my mouth.
âI will not run away¡¡¡¡¡¡¡â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âI will never leave your side, thatâs why you donât have to worry anymore.â
After I finished speaking, I raised my head and looked at him.
Waiting for an answer, Calix made a condescending expression then smiled wrily. I realized in that reaction.
The fact that he also doesnât believe me.
âLike the way I donât trust him.â
Our relationship is already twisted to the point of ruin.
Calix asked in a cold, sarcastic voice.
âYou canât trust me, and now youâre saying youâll stay with me?â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡Isnât that what you want.â
I answered, avoiding his gaze. He drew himself close to me, grabbed me by the chin, and made me face him. His blue eyes gleamed with madness from a nose-diving distance.
âPromise me, Laure.â
âPromise what¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âThat you will never leave my side until the day we both die, and even in death, promise me we would be buried side by side.â
âThat kind of thing¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âThen Iâll release you.â
Our lips suddenly came in contact. And the moment I opened my mouth in surprise, he bit my lips and his tongue delve inside.
His kisses this time were obscenely unkind. Even if I try to evade, he would relentlessly chase and capture my lips, making me utterly breathless.
Every now and then, whenever our lips separate for a brief moment, I gasp for breath. The strength in my legs disappears and my head went numb.
Soon I was completely leaning on him. Even if I tried to push him with both hands, my powerless grasp would only slip.
Calix held my waist tightly with one arm and held the back of my neck with the other, preventing me from moving.
It was the first time heâs ever been like this with me. Treating me so rough.
Unreservedly witnessing his obsession and madness, my heart burned and tears emerge.
The moment the tears running down my cheeks moistened his lips, Calix finally let me go.
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
I shut my mouth tight so as not to burst out crying. I couldnât lift my head. It was extremely painful seeing him. I feel like it would tormentingly break my heart.
The moment the arm that was keeping me in place barely loosened, I pushed him away and turned on my back.
âI wonât run away, so you donât have to worry.â
I said, chewing my words as I open the door.
I went inside, closed the door, sat down in front of it, and cried for a while.
No matter how much I cried, my tears would not stop.
I could not trust him completely.
I can never have faith in him.
Our love-hate relationship, which has been twisted beyond belief. To the point where trust for each other was barely left.
Was indescribably sad and painful that it canât be expressed in words.
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When I came back to my room after getting myself together, Will was waiting for me. Then he handed me a paper bag.
âGrand Duke Rochester dropped it before he left.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âLetiziaâs with Alice. You donât have to worry.â
âThen¡¡¡¡¡¡ Iâm going now. You should take some rest.â
Will left the room quietly. His unquestioned consideration for not asking what had happened moved me immeasurably. I sat down on the bed, pressing my sleeves against the side of my eyes which was starting to tear up again.
Rustle. I took out what was inside the paper bag blankly. And then¡¡¡¡¡¡.
âGasp¡¡¡¡¡.â
Tears dripped down my cheeks once again.
Drip, drip drip. Drops of tears continuously fell on the âthingâ.
Calix would have brought this because he wanted to show it to me. After several times of hesitation, I couldnât help but hold it in my hand.
He must have suffered hundreds of times just to bring it this far. Would everything be okay if I give her this? Will Laure remember¡¡¡¡¡¡. He must have had those thoughts in his mind.
âThen, if you do¡¡¡¡¡¡ Please always stay by my side, Laure. Donât abandon me, donât leave me. Always.
It was evident that he had not forgotten the promise.
âheuk, heueueuk¡¡¡¡¡¡!â *continous bawling*
I hugged it and sobbed. Itâs just like my broken heart, or like his delicate fragmented heart.
What Calix tried to give me was a little blue bird brooch made of glass.
However, there was a distinct crack in the fragile bluebird, as if it had suffered an irreparable scar.
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Thinking back, Sean occasionally wears a shadowy expression.
Every time that happens, Seanâs gaze was always directed at Will.
According to Alice, Willâs mother, Seanâs wife died as soon as she gave birth to their child.
Sean, who was left alone with his child, raised Will with the utmost attention. Like the most precious treasure of the world.
For his precious child to be in such an accident, Sean must have just made some wrong judgments for a moment.
No matter how good a man is. Thereâs will always be a dark side to everyone.
âI understand that in my head.â
However, when I looked at Sean, the words that I would forgive him wouldnât come out of my mouth.
Sean sat across from me, unable to lift his head with his head down. Regrets and resentment could visibly be seen on his face at the same time.
Did you have to poison me? Those questions hovered at the tip of my tongue repeatedly and then disappeared.
On the other hand, I understood him. Because Iâve also made some wrong choices in my life.
I sighed and said.
âYou didnât even make any excuses.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
Sean neatly admitted his mistakes. And didnât even make any excuses. He simply said that he was sorry multiple times, that what he did was shameful, and that he was willing to take any punishment.
I just smiled in defeat.
Punishment?
Iâve never thought of anything like that.
Although it ended on a sad note, Iâve already accepted Sean in my life as a family. How will I be able to punish him? Itâs just heartbreaking. The fact that we have to leave each otherâs side, hurt and wounded.
I could only say in a low voice.
âSean. Punishing you is not what I want.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âHow could I do that to Sean, to Will? To those who have helped me¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
It was a situation where we were caught in the ax of faith, but I didnât forget that I was indebted to them.
âI will not let this matter leak outside. All I want¡¡¡¡¡¡ is a sincere apology from Sean.â
After listening quietly for a moment, Sean finally opened his mouth.
â¡¡¡¡¡¡Please forgive me.â
I smiled bitterly.
âYou seem to be sincerely sorry, so I donât feel sad anymore.â
Seanâs face was full of regret and guilt. Thatâs why I knew. That he feels terribly guilty.
â¡¡¡¡¡¡Itâs all because of my foolishness. Iâm one of those persons who truly know your situation, thatâs why I shouldâve treated you much better¡¡¡¡¡.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âI donât know if I have the right to ask for forgiveness. If you want to blame me, or criticize me, do it. I will also accept any punishment you will bestow.â
I shook my head. If I blamed him and poured out grudges, it would rather hurt my heart.
âI donât know if I can forgive you or not.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âBut I understand. Iâve also made some wrong choices.â
Sean raised his head and looked at me. His gray eyes, resembling Will, were full of guilt.
âSo Iâll try to forgive you.â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âBecause I know that Sean isnât really a bad person, heâs actually a righteous person.â
Seanâs eyes turned misty. He kept his mouth shut as if he were holding back his tears, then he soon dropped his head. The drops of tears that fell quietly moistened the hem of his clothes.
âIâm¡¡¡¡¡¡ Really sorry¡¡¡¡¡¡â
â¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
âIâm sorry¡¡¡¡¡¡.â
I sat motionlessly still, until Seanâs tears finally stopped.
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