Peerlees Dad 《지천명 아비무쌍》Chapter 2
Heavenly Dragon Society Best Warrior -What explanation do you need?

The main gate of Heavenly Dragon Society is big.
The gate is three times my height and can accomodate about twelve people or three carts passing through at the same time comfortably.
I am a gatekeeper who guards the main gate of the Heavenly Dragon Society.
The Heavenly Dragon Society registered the first class warriors as soldiers, and the main gate was guarded by four soldiers of that class.
“Oh, when will the position change??”
“Will it change within half a year?” Mr. Lee and Mr. Park exchanged words.
“What to do in this trivial job? It would have been good if I entered one of the Heveanly Dragon squads.”
“Aren’t there a lot of competition there? I would be satisfied even if I only entered the Earth Dragon Squad.”
I really like this mission, where I could just stand up and get to pick what I eat when it is time to eat, go to work on time and leave work on time.
But, my colleagues hate this job.
Boring? No fighting?
Why would it be boring to work for money, and why do you need to fight?
“Isn’t it time to eat?”
They grinned at my words.
From their point of view, I really don’t amount much. I like this gatekeeper’s job, and I have been standing here for three years and I requested it from my direct superintendent, Jong Jigwan, the second division commander.
I don’t really care about them, as they think first class warriors like them do not belong to this job .
“It should be soon. I hope the food is better. I mean the weather is cool today and it would be good to get a bowl of cold noodles.”
My words was answered by Jeong Jiho, another first class warrior I am familiar enough with to call him by name .
In fact, although I had been in the Heavenly Dragon Society for eight years, I could count with one hand the people I am familiar enough with to call by name..
“You’re hungry for cold noodles? Indeed we don’t know what we’ll be eating. I hope they give us chicken.”
“This bastard talking about meat again. Don’t you get tired of eating meat everyday?”
“I wish I could eat more. Meat is the only truth.”
“It is good to eat in moderation. Peak level masters eat in harmony with yin and yang, with little meat . Think about it, Shaolin practitioners don’t eat meat, even the large clans only eat small amount.”
“Do I have anything to do with them? It’s good to fill yourself when you eat.” While I was speaking I realized, there was only one thing that isn’t good at being a gatekeeper. These days, there’s not much to move around.. Because I only had to patrol the wall once every two hours, it was a bit boring during working hours.
“Anyway. Even when we are drinking at night, you look for meat. Look, if you eat too much, you’ll get sick.”
“I have been eating meat for 20 years and I’m still strong. Can’t you see this?”
As I showed my strong forearm, Mr. Lee, who was watching it, laughed at me.. “A first class warrior is bragging about his muscles?? Physical training and external force only needs to be trained enough in order to adapt to the internal energy.”
“Better than being skinny like you. Do you know how many years it would take to have muscles like this?”
“But it’s only natural that I am not able to handle heavy training. I don’t know what martial arts you have mastered，but it’s amazing that you became a first class warrior like us.”
‘Look at this guy?’
I heard a lot of bragging about martial arts stories from the private dining area made for first class warrior.
Internal Energy this external force that, something something likes this, something something like that，in my eyes, it’s all just bullshit..
Anyway, if done properly, whether it’s internal energy or external force, you’ll go in one shot. No matter what type of training, if you are hit in the right place by a metal weapon, you will still die.
Only think about hitting well without getting hit，if you think otherwise you’re just a mediocre first class warrior.
“Want to fight? My martial arts or your muscle, which is stronger?” Mr. Lee in a fit of anger from my threatening words said.
“Haha，what are you talking about? It’s not good to fight between colleagues.”
“Yes, other warriors will look down on us.”
Jeong Jiho and Mr. Park stopped him, but I couldn’t forgive anyone who look down on me and my colleagues. With one fist, I could shut that Mr. Lee’s mouth.
If Jung Jiho hadn’t said a word at that time, I would have really punched.
“If you fight with your colleagues, your salary will be reduced, and if worse, you can get kicked out. Be careful you two.”
Ah! Come to think of it. That’s why I’ve been here for eight years, and I haven’t had my own way with all the pricks.
And that was a big deal. If my salary is reduced, I only get one gold, and worse, I can get kicked out of this good job. That cannot happen.
“Hello everyone?”
After a while, when mr. Lee and I were staring at each other, Elder Han approached me as he slowly brushed his broomstick.
“Elder，thank you again for today.” I politely bowed, but my colleagues looked at me weirdly. Even Jung Ji-ho was just nodding his head lightly.
For them, Elder Han was simply an old cleaning servant and a braggart.
“You’re having a hard time in this heat.”
“All I have to do is stand, but you’re still moving, and I think you’re gonna cry even more.”
“Hahaha, All I have to do is take it easy.” Elder Han laughed.
That smile just resembles my master. Of course, the reason why I was polite to the elderly was not just because I looked like my master.
Old ginger is said to be spicy, and old age is the size of a warehouse of wisdom that cannot be hidden.
No matter how much I agonized, the Elder can come up with answers easily. Especially on the issue of childcare for widowers like me.
“Are Gunghyeon，Donghyeon， and Seohyeon well?”
“Of course. Please come visit. The children are looking for elder.”
“Haha，Then I’ll have to buy something for the kids when I come.”
“You don’t have to. How much do you earn. I’ll treat you when you visit.”
“Hey, don’t ignore me cleaning like this. If you earn this much at this age, you’re one of the biggest earners. I was once… …”
Here we go again. It’s a story that starts with the words “I was once”.
The Elder is good and all, but the bragging was too much.
At one time, it was said that he entered Seojangmilgyo alone and fought the cult leader, or that he made the great killing team scared, anyway he was a man with a terrible sense of bragging.
The reason why I listened even though I obviously knew that it was a brag was because he was a good man, and except for the bragging, the story was interesting in its own way. But, I don’t know if my colleagues are also listening to the brags of this man.
“There was a guy named Poison Blood Sword.”
He shows off his strength to the people so that he would fit in with the military.
Well, it’s definitely good to listen to, just for fun. Also, because of his stories, the children liked this Elder.
He is an omniscient and almighty grandfather who who can do everything.
“So I cut off the poison blood sword with this hand and shredded him into three pieces.
“Why is such a great man cleaning here?”
As if he thought the bragging was too much, Lee groaned when the story ended. But the old man didn’t care about such sarcasm.
“It’s like, you know, I think it’s like realizing the impermanence of human life? Nothing much to live for. Doing the same thing everyday eat, sleep, and crap? Well, there’s nothing grand about it, so I thought it wasn’t bad to just move around.”
“Haha, your realization is also true. All I can do is laugh.”
“Really. The reason why the poison blood sword suddenly disappeared is because of me..”
The elderly protested with a desperate look at Lee’s ridiculous smile, but they were already losing interest.
“I believe, old man.”
“You don’t have to believe. Because it’s a fact.”
“Huhu, I believe it.”
“By the way, Gunghyun will be admitted this fall.?”
“Yes. I told him to go to the literary school, but he ended up going to a martial school.” Gunghyun is the eldest of the triplets. All three of them were born on the same day, but Gunghyun was the first to come out.
So, I was trying to get him to study properly. Maybe it’s because he’s like me, but it’s never been easy for him to learn characters.
Children who are a little faster are said to memorize thousand characters when they are eight years old, but this one seemed to memorize about a hundred characters, let alone a thousand. And I am not able to confirm it, so it might be less than that.
‘Regrettable! I have to study writing because of my kids?’
I’m a an illiterate who knows only the three characters of my name and numbers. So there was no way to check how many characters Gunghyun memorized. Most of all, I’m worried that I would look like a foolish father.
Ah! ‘What a shame! This is’. Whenever I cursed, my wife hated it because it was vulgar. But how can a 25-year-old habit change so easily? That’s why I fought with her a lot. This was the only reason for the fight.
In any case, because of that, I had to go through the process of changing my swear words into words that she could tolerate, and ‘what a shame!’ is an example of it.. You can understand it as if it’s an abbreviation of cursing.Then the old man said.“This guy. Even though this grandfather said so. ‘I’m stubborn because I look like you.’”
“Gunghyun failed, but Donghyun and Seohyun are still here. Especially, Seohyun, this girl will be put in the literary school. Even if I have to hit her.”
“Where’s the time to hit that little thing.”
“I’m tearing their heads off right now, and they’re going to make a fuss if I don’t send them to a martial school. I think Seohyun is much better at using her brain. So she must be sent to the literary school.”
“Haha, yes. Sometimes I even worry about accepting her as my disciple.”
Is there an art of the broom? I thought for a while. But why does it matter? Can it help you calm down?”Can cleaning calm you down?”
“Cleaning? Shall I teach you to clean, then?”
“Either way, I’m sure I’ll put her in the literary school.”
“You’re going to hear a lot of grumbling today.” Time flies when I talk about the children with the elder. It’s already lunch time.
“Let’s go eat!” The meal shift approached me in the distance and screamed.
“Let’s go eat, old man.”
“Don’t you have a separate restaurant? Don’t worry about me. I’ll be right back.”
Heavenly Dragon Society has a restaurant for leaders, executives, and first class wariors in the inner, while other restaurants for other warriors are located separately on the outer city. Below that, they all eat in one place.
I feel a little bad because it seems to discriminate by eating, but I didn’t have much complaints because there was a meal at the restaurant of the warriors.
“Ah, What are you worried about? You can come with me. The rice is delicious.”
“No. It’s okay. There’s someone else who promised to pay for my meal today.”
“Then go ahead. I’m hungry.”
“Let’s go.” I shook my hand and headed to the restaurant, shoulder to shoulder with Jeong Jiho.
“Gung-hyun is going into a martial school?”
“You heard it. If it doesn’t work even when you show your fist, then it means he is serious. Well, it’s a shame, but I think a man should have that level of stubbornness.”
“Why do you want to send him to the literary school? They all seem to want to go to the martial school.”
Jiho pretended to blow in the mouth when he asked with a questioning expression. It’s easy to say bad words.
“I like this job, and I only know how to do this, so I’m living with this, but I don’t want to let the kids live like that. Why do you ask that when you know what living by the blade is? I’d rather be like Elder Han.”
“Well……
“And in life, you earn a lot more by knowing the brush than by using a knife. When I was a young man, I had a grandmother who connected me to clients. That grandmother earned more than me. My grandmother’s talent is just that she knows how to write. Then I realized. That brushing is much better than cutting.”
“Heuheuheu，that’s right.”
“Gung-hyun failed, but Dong-hyun and Seo-hyun will be sent to the literary school even if they die, so wait and see.”

— Part 2 —

“As expected, rice is delicious. It’s so delicious that I don’t think I’m even worth the meal. I’m even sorry for them.”
The meal at the restaurant was excellent today.
How can they give you stir-fried rice with pork and vegetables every meal? I’m so impressed.
‘Well, I’ve chosen a good place to work.’
To be honest, there is not much work to do even if you say you are a middle-class warrior. It was a little annoying to participate in the team training twice a month and the real training that needs to be done once a week.
“The captain is looking for you.”
Seong Jin-kyung came to me as soon as I was about to have fun with Jung Ji-ho.
Seong Jin-kyung.
He said his skills were high enough to enter Heavenly Dragon Squad. However, he said he is still in the position of his deputy because he is a private official like Ham Dae-heung, the commander of the military.
In fact, the skills of the top warriors here seemed insignificant to my eyes, but I acknowledge that. He was one of those guys who could get a decent shot out of this field.
‘Anyway, the words become seeds.’
As soon as I thought I was not worth the meal, seeing this guy come, my words seemed to evoke trouble.
Captain Ham had no reason to find me.
He knew that I preferred to work in the castle instead of outside work. In addition, his inner castle and the gate where I work were far away, so I didn’t see much of his face.
‘Well, what’s the big deal? You have to pay for the meal after you have it.’
I didn’t think much and followed in Seong Jin-kyung’s footsteps..
“Welcome.”
As I entered the office, Captain Ham glanced at me and pointed to a seat in the office chair.
“Wait a minute. I just need to finish this.”
And again, he put his head on the pile of documents.
After all, it is difficult to be in a high position. It’s lunch time now, but it didn’t seem like he was eating and is still working. Is that all? There will be a lot of risk of dying.
“Sorry for making you wait.”
After waiting for a while, Captain Ham left the pile of documents and sat in front of me.
“Are you having any difficulties in your work?”
“It’s just standing at the door, what.” “You wanted to work inside, so I tried to assign you to the resistance patrol, but you said you hated it.
“I spent too much time there and it’s a long way from home..”
“What’s with your answer?” Captain Ham’s face didn’t look so good at my answer.
“I’m not in the position to argue about this or that. If you want to do whatever you want, take the promotion test. Will you challenge Heavenly Dragon Battalion??”
“Haha，no thanks. It’s perfect right now. And I know that the captain is considerate.”
“I’m glad you know that. We don’t have a lot of colleagues here, but I heard you’re not sociable. You have to hang out often because on the battlefield, only they will protect your back.”
Captain Ham’s words weren’t very wrong, but it wasn’t unconditionally correct.
When I was a mercenary, the members of the same squad talked to each other, but in the end, if they feel that it’s dangerous, they will leave you to die. My body is what I have to protect. But, I was tactful enough to not contradict him. I just have to laugh and nod my head. Then I was thrilled.
‘Is this the father’s heart? Looking at your superiors, and laughing even though it’s not funny.’
I never saw anyone in my eyes when I was a mercenary. But the work environment here was too good for me to just live my own way, so I have to endure hard.
“By the way, I have a request.”
“Is it a request, not an order?” It was a question I asked without much thought, but Captain Ham answered it after thinking about it for a while..
“It’s both. It takes consideration of your circumstances to be a request, and it is something you must do be called an order.”
“Tell me.”
“We need to get someone.”
“That’s not hard. Who are you trying to get?By the way. You’re taking the time to tell me the answer? It’s not that hard to bring people in.”
“We have to go down to Hanam. We need to get a kid from there..”
“Yes?” I doubted my ears for a moment. Did I hear that it’s in Hanam? No way. It can’t be. “Is there a place called Hanam in our castle?”
“No, there’s no place called Hanam in our castle.”
“Well, it’s really that Hanam?”
The moment Captain Ham nodded, I exploded.
It takes two months just to get from Unnam to Hanam. It’s only possible if you didn’t take a rest. If you take into account this and that, it’ll take three months.
I have to go and come back, so a total of six months.
“I don’t want to, even if it’s an order. To be away from home for half a year.”
To my resolute answer, Captain Ham glanced at me and opened his mouth. “Even if it’s an order?”
I can’t give up this good job, but half a year is too long. I’m already sorry that they don’t have a mother, but if I’m gone.
“Why do I have to? Aren’t there many other people?”
“You are the right man. The person to bring this time is a child. Did they say he was seven?”
“Am I the only warrior with a child? I don’t like it. Send someone else.”
“I’ll send you to the place you want when you come back this time. Your monthly salary will also rise a lot.”
“I like this place right now, and I don’t need any more money.”
“Really! It’s an order!”
“Then I’ll quit. I like it here, but I’m not so incomepetent that I can’t even make ends meet even if I quit.”
I didn’t miss Captain Ham’s expression hardening for a moment and it became conflicted.
‘Ah! Did I go too hard?’ Like I said, there’s no way there’s a good place like this where you can feed, pay, and even educate your children. As confirmed by the Sword Gate, not all large forces were doing well.
“I don’t know if it’s in a month or two. Will you not come when I send someone to pick you up??” Captain Ham asked with a stern expression.
“Are you suggesting we make a deal?”
“It’s not a deal. But I don’t want to throw my children away to bring other people’s child back.”
“Even if you say it. What’s with that child, child my ass? First Class warriors have the opportunity to formally join the association at any time. If you talk like that, it won’t work everytime. Even if you don’t care about that.” Captain Ham stared at me like he was going to kill me. At that time, Seong Jin-kyung whispered something in his ear.
‘I’m more courteous to not whisper in front of people.’ When I was thinking so, Captain Ham faced me again and said.
“This is not a deal, but this time the children are going to be eight years old?”
“Yes.”
“So they’re either go to the academy or school.”
“Yes, they are. Captain, you have kids, too?”
“The oldest child will be twenty next year.”
Captain Ham’s words unknowingly received my admiration.
“Ah! It would be nice. Twenty.”
When my babies were still in blood, I just wanted them to walk around, and when they started walking around, I wanted them to be able to poop alone, and when that I’m old enough, I wanted them to take care of me.
I was so jealous of Captain Ham, who already raised the children like that.
“Hmm, anyway, have you decided where they will go?”
“What do I have to decide? The school is Twin Dragon Dojo School, and the academy is Earth Dragon Academy”, before I can finish speaking, Captain Ham said.
“You’re children can go to either Heavenly Dragon School or Heavenly Dragon Academy.”
‘Heavenly Dragon School and Heavenly Dragon Academy? Did we ever have that in the castle?’
Captain Ham continued speaking as if to answer the question on my face.
“Twin Dragon School is a place where executive-level children go, but Heavenly Dragon School is a place where people from the top directly look after their children.”
“Directly?”
“Yes, directly. The same goes for Heavenly Dragon Academy. The disciples of Ji Hakdo, who is a military officer of the organization, not an external scholar, take care of their children’s studies. Sometimes the top level exetives teach there.”
I know that even if I’m a little ignorant, there’s a big difference depending on who teaches. For example, if someone had taught me and not my master, I wouldn’t have been able to live by the blade.Once I understood martial arts, I used them well. But the problem is, I wasn’t good at understanding it. I was able to learn the master’s martial arts because he showed the same words and movements dozens of times without being annoyed. However, when I teach children, I tend to get angry when they don’t understand what I say.
It is natural that the leaders of the Heavenly Dragon Society, one of the four great forces, would be better at teaching. I had no choice but to be tempted.
“Are you thinking about it now?” Captain Ham said with an amazed look at my troubled sigh.
“Don’t you see what kind of amazing opportunity this is? If your children study with the leader’s children, your children will have higher chance of becoming leaders as well. It’s an opportunity for your children to raise their status..”
“They just have to grow up healthy, without worrying. It’s just a rise in status.”
“That’s what you think. I know you’re not greedy, but you shouldn’t force your children to be the same. If you’re a father, shouldn’t you open the way for your children?”
It suddenly became complicated. It’s true that I wanted them to live better than I did, but I didn’t want to make it complicated. So that’s what you call pressure? I have to open the way.
‘What are you talking about?’ My head is made of stone, but no matter how much you knock on stone, it will only make a sound. If I worked hard, I would have had a better idea.
“I’ll think about it.”
“What is there to think about? I’m trying to give you this chance as well.”
“I appreciate what you’re saying, but I don’t know if it’s worth it to be away from the kids for half a year for this great opportunity, and I know it’s not an easy choice to make.”Captain Ham shook his head and said. “Think about it to your heart’s content but if you refuse my orders, I’ll need to think about why you should remain as our guard, and I don’t want to.”
“I understand.”
I bowed my head and got out of Captain Ham’s office.
‘Ah, I hope what just happened was something that just didn’t happen. Why is it so complicated?’

Ham Daeheung shouted as Noh Gajang went out like that.
“What!? order with a deal? I gave you a chance, and now you’re gonna think about it?”
Next to him, Sung Jin-kyung asked carefully. “If you’re bringing someone from Hanam, you’ll have to be careful, but why did you give us such an order?”
“It’s not me, it’s an order from the higher ups! The command is from Jiryong-nim.”
Seong Jin-kyung asked in amazement. “Is this an order directly from Jiryong-nim?”
“I think it’s because there’s a signature on the order. But what is that really?”
“Didn’t you feel something special when he came in? I was under pressure that it is uncomfortable.”
“That’s why it’s weird. Since when did they pay such attention to an individual warrior? When did the inner castle have enough time to look after warriors individually? It’s bothering me..”
Seong Jin-kyung replied to Ham Dae-heung’s words while pressing the temple.
“I think you better be careful.”
“Careful?”
“I’ll keep the instructions related to Noh Gajang separately. The responsibility could come to you later.” Ham Dae-heung’s expression hardened.
“Does it look that serious?”
“There’s nothing wrong with being careful when it’s a little weird. Also, I think it would be better to write a report separately and submit it to Jiryong.”
“That’s good. Alright, since Heavenly Dragon hasn’t shown up recently, the internal conflict has become too big.”
“Why don’t you look into it separately?”
Ham Dae-heung shook his head.“It’s too much. There’s nothing good about working for nothing. It’s best to just pretend you don’t know. We just have follow the orders faithfully.”
“But I think you should tell the Elder in advance. Jiryong’s involvement will be interesting.”
Ham Dae-heung nodded in that opinion. “That’s a good idea. You fill out the report to submit before meeting Jiryong. I’ll write it for you.”
“Yes, Captain.”
“When they’re together, it’s read as death penalty. I can’t get used to the title of Captain.”
“Yes, sahyung. And,”
“Why? do you have something to say?”
“You have to get to the command post somehow. All the members of the private sector are looking only at sahyung.”
“They didn’t expect me to come this far. Let’s not overdo it just because we meet expectations. If you do it slowly, a road will open.”
“Yes, sahyung. I will help sahyung as much as possible.”
Ham Dae-heung once again warned Sung Jinkyung that he might do something useless.
“It’s not impossible if the master is around. He won’t forget to say “don’t overdo” it.”
‘Don’t let it get in the way? If you don’t let it go, it will block the road.’
While returning to work, Captain Ham’s words were caught up in his mouth. It couldn’t help but get caught.

The reason that I came in here was to raise my babies better.
‘If you get a high position, you will be very busy. Of course, it would be fun to manage people and make money, but I’m sure there are also a lot of things to worry about. Is that a good life?’
I wanted to ignore it, but isn’t what Captain Ham said that is wrong? I shouldn’t force my children just because I think it’s right.
“Oh，shit! It’s complicated,”
I hate complicated things, but I had to keep thinking. That’s a father’s duty. However, it was not organized until the end of the working hours.
“Let’s have a drink today.”
When Jiho spins his wrist and pretends to drink, I answered.
“Let’s drink tomorrow. It’s not good right now”
“What is it? You don’t even tell your problems to me.”
“I’m not asking you who haven’t even been married. I’m going first.”
I heard Jiho say something behind me, but I was in a hurry. Before I went home, I had to ask before I saw the children.
“Elder!”
“Why? wanna have a drink?”
I nodded at the words of Elder Han, who beckoned to drink in the same way as Jiho.
“I’ll pay.”
“Today is my turn. I earn less than you, but I can take care of it because I spend less.”
“Consultation fee.”
Elder Han said resentfully. “Okay? Then you can pay. Can I order some meat?”
“Did you see me order other side dishes?”
“Go ahead, quickly.”
Let’s go, hurry.” Elder Han and I usually enjoy it.
He headed in to find a seat.
“Here.”
I sat on the chair, and I opened my mouth.
“Two bottles of white wine and a stir-fried beef?”
“Darn, the stir-fried beef is only on special occasions.”
“Okay, then stir-fried pork”.After a while, the waiter first served two bottles of white wine.
“The captain looked for me today.”
I opened my mouth while offering a drink to Mr. Han’s grandfather.
“Why? Did he say he will send you somewhere else?”
“Yeah, I was there for a long time. But no, It’s not like that.”
I explained Captain Ham’s story to Elder Han and asked for advice on what to do.
“What should I do when the situation is like this?”
“What are you thinking about? You have to catch it.”
“Yes?”
“What do you have to worry about? You have to grab that opportunity quickly.”
At least I thought that Elder would think about it even a little bit, or pretend to do so. But I was confused when he told me to grab the opportunity.
“What are you looking at?”
“I thought you said that I should never be apart from my children?”
“I did indeed. But you said he well send them to the Heavenly Dragon School? Then let them go. What are you thinking about?”
“Is it worth it? Enough to be half a year away from my kids?”
Elder Han replied by pouring alcohol in his mouth.
“So it doesn’t seem worth it? If you want to play in the big water when you grow up, you have to play in the big water since you were young. The gap between big and small water is more than you think.”
“That’s not necessarily a good thing. I don’t play in the big water, but I’m satisfied, and the elder played in the big water, but now you’re worse than I am now.”
“I’ve had fun. I came down because I had enough fun. There’s a difference between saying I have played and went down and I was not able to play. And I’m just saying that because I’ve been playing around, it’s actually a lot of fun.”
“Ah，shit! The taste of alcohol is getting bad.”
I didn’t know, but I thought deep inside, I wanted Elder Han to take my side, but when I heard the same words as Captain Ham, the alchocol tasted bad.
“I want to go home. Just eat it alone.”
At the sound of me standing up, Elder Han dissuaded me and asked. “Why are you upset? When have I ever been wrong?”
He has never been wrong. That is also the reason why I was the only one who was polite to him when everyone looked down on Elder Han.
“Sit down. I’ll tell you a story.”
I reluctantly sat down again, and Elder Han said.
“My father was a farmer. He worked harder than anyone else, but we were always hungry. And I didn’t understand why. There lived a man next door who was a merchant clerk, but he didn’t starve..”
When Elder Han was trying to pour alcohol into his own cup, I took the bottle and poured it.
“By the way, no matter how hungry my father was, he always tried to send me to the academy. Even if he starves for three days, he still tried to send me there to listen and give at least half a bag of mixed grain to the school teacher. Did you know that?”
“In order send me there, not only my father and my mother, but also my two younger siblings starved. I really hated it. How much burden is he trying to give me? It’s the same in all other houses. Since I was the eldest son, I’ll needed to learn hard and become successful, so I can take my younger siblings’ money. Why was he so worried? I wasn’t as cool as you were. Haa！”
Elder Han said after drinking three times in a row.
“I think it was since then. Innocently, I started to defy my father.”
He drank again.
“I was young. Very young. So I said something I shoudn’t have said to my father. If you can’t feed your children because you’re ignorant, you shouldn’t have given birth in the first place, and you said you wouldn’t live like your father. How big a nail must have been stuck in the heart of the innocent man who worked so hard to teach me and feed my siblings?”
He drank again.
“Luckily, I met my master and learned his martial arts, and my name began to be known when I was 30. And after getting married, I had children too. That’s when I realized. I deserve to die tens of thousands of times.”
He down three cups of wine again
“I wanted to beg for forgiveness for doing something wrong… … I wasn’t able to do that. No one will know how it feels. How does it feel to have not made a single mistake?”
Elder Han looked for alcohol again, but he had already drank two bottles of white wine by himself. But before I could order more alcohol, Mr. Ku, the owner of the bar, brought four bottles of liquor and put them on our table.
Elder Han held the bottle and drankfrom it. Then he looked straight at me and said.
“Don’t you want to see your kids do better in the end?”
“That, well.”
“Then you should make it work. No matter what excuse you make, you don’t want to be away from the children. Your heard there’s a good path, but isn’t it because you’re greedy?”
“It’s not like that for me. But I don’t have to be away from my children.”
Elder han shook his head and said.
“That’s an excuse. Think about it carefully, their needs. Are you confident that you won’t be blamed by your children later? Do you want to hear the say that they missed that great opportunity because of their father?”
“You’re supposed to beat a guy who’s so cheap. Are you listening to that?”
“Will you be able to take it? You will only be able to regret it then.”
“No, I don’t..”
“But the kids could. They could get mad at you and resent you. And one day, they’ll have children and think of you.
And wouldn’t you regret it like me?” I felt a lump in my throat.
I don’t think my babies would talk so cheap, but what if they were the only one? I have the guts to hit them one by one for saying I’m cheap, but what if my babies regret it like Elder Han?
‘I’m really fine… …
I feel bad.. It got very bad.
“I do not know. I’m going.”
I got up from my seat. I didn’t want to sit down even though it was obvious that my mood would keep getting worse.
“Put it on my tab!”
I screamed out at the counter and walked out.
Elder Han called me but I ignored it. If I heard more, I would have to go to Hanam without my children.
‘What’s the point of what others say? I’ll talk to my babies. If they don’t like it, I won’t go. If they want it then. That’s how you do it.’
I thought it was a good solution myself. But I still didn’t feel good.

♦

“I listen to it while eating snacks. I’m upset.”
Mr. Ku, the owner of the restaurant similar to Mr. Han, said while serving the stir-fried beef.
“I didn’t know you had such a situation. I thought you were just bluffing and bluffing, so I thought it was a waste.”
Elder Han’s eyes, which looked as if something was about to pour out, shone brightly at the sight of stir-fried beef. Then he held out his chopsticks and asked Mr. Ku..
“What are you talking about?”
“It’s like what happened to me too. I will not live like my father, and I will not risk my life on this one. But in my life…… don’t you know? I feel like I’m worse than my father. He’s an amazing person. I mean, he’s a lot better than me.”
“Well, I’m a lot better off compared to my father. You liked it a lot because you’re so strong.”
“yes? What do you mean……
“I gave you a house, hired a servant and a maid so you wouldn’t lift a finger, and I found servant to go to the late market. He said it was his fault that he couldn’t spend all the money I gave him when he died.”
“But before……
“He’s so ignorant that I have to tell him this much to understand.”
“So everything you’ve just said is a lie?”
When Mr. Ku asked with a frightened look, Han replied, chewing beef hard.
“It’s a moderate mix. It is true that my father was a farmer and that I said I wouldn’t live like him. So I lived differently from him.”
“This person, now……
“Good is good. Don’t you know what Heavenly Dragon Academy and Heavenly Dragon School are like? I tried to avoid those places, so I told him to understand me according to his level.”
Mr. Ku tried to say something. Han said as if he were driving a wedge.
“Ah! This story is a secret to him. He’ll try to eat me if he finds out. If I lose my drinking friend, you’ll lose your sales, so there’s nothing good about it.”
“This one is really!”
Mr. Ku got angry and grabbed the plate containing stir-fried beef. Elder Han’s words made Mr. Ku tear up because he thought of his father, but he was angry because Elder Han said it was a lie.
“That’s already paid. Give it to me.”
Mr. Ku shook his head and put the plate back on the table.. Then He went back to the cash register and thought.
‘There will be no future trauma to him.’

♦Peerless Dad’s Parenting Journal
Wriggle.
The squishy, soft, and plump things are flickering.
When I prick my fingers, I try to grab my fingers, struggling with my hands.
‘They can’t see yet?’
It is said that newborn babies couldn’t see even with their eyes open.
You’re looking at me in such a way even when you can’t see me.
“When will you see?”
The guys started to pout their lips
“No no.”
I held Gunghyun and Donghyun with my left arm, and brought Seohyun to my right arm with my remaining hand.
It’s good that I am big. I am able to hold you guys at the same time.
The heartbeat is not very loud. Three guys had what one guy should have, so it’s bound to be. Also, the size is not as small as my children.
‘Will they grow big if I feed the a lot?’
All of a sudden, the guys were sticking their cheeks to my arms
Their eyes are closed
‘I don’t know how much you see.’
The nanny said they resembled me, but no matter how much I looked at, it seemed that only the skin was attached to the bone.
‘What the hell do she see and say that you look like me…
Well, if you look very, very closely, I feel like you are a little like me.. Just my thoughts.♦